| back and well with bad news ruben was deployed a lil over 2 weeks ago and well i haven't heard a word. he's over in the middle east and it fucken kills me. i love him so much and i know it's going to be awhile till i hear him but it's killing me. i'm a walking wreck. i do know this will be his LAST time over there. in one yr he will be done with the army. he spent his 4yrs with the government and now he's coming home. i just have to wait it out. cuz i won't be releaved untill he's truly safe. i just want everyone to keep him in your thoughts |
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| moving to a new name hope to see yall there |
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| FUCK EVERYONE RIGHT HERE RIGHT NOW THIS IS BULLSHIT I WORKED MY ASS OFF TO GET THIS HOUSE CLEAN FOR A PARTY THAT ISN'T EVEN FOR ME. DID I HEAR ONE THANKS FUCK NO I DIDN'T. I HATE THIS BULLSHIT ALL THE BITCH HAD TO DO WAS THE LIVING ROOM AND THE BATH ROOM. AND WELL I GOT THE KITCHEN THE FRONT YARED THE ENTRANCE THE HALL WAY I HAVE TO WATCH MY LANGUE BUT SHE DOESN'T HAVE TO CARE ABOUT A THING. SHE'S A BITCH AND WELL TO EVERY ONE I'M THE BITCH. I'M OUT OF CONTROL. FUCK THIS I NEED A SMOKE SO BAD I CAN'T HANDLE THIS AT ALL. REALLY I'M READY FOR IT TO END FOR A CAR TO HIT ME AND KILL ME. FOR ME TO GET IN THE WAY OF A STRAY BULLET. I WANT IT TO BE OVER SO BAD. I JUST DON'T WANT TO LIVE AND WELL GOD IS MAKING ME. WHAT A JERK. HE JUST WON'T LET THE PAIN END DOES HE. HE LIKES PPL TO SUFFER. |
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| what the fuck we've had this computer for how long and it is already fucked up. what the fuck i hate my lil sister i hope she moves out soon. i will be able to be a big help to my parents(mom) i don't care if i'm 25 living with my parents. i want to be there for them when they get sick when it's their time. i don't know i'm trying to stop smokeing AGAIN lets see how that goes |
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| we are hitting off well i could say so myself hehehe i did say it. yea this guy named ray. we always talk at work chill with each other talk on our breaks and our lunches. he seems so sweet. he doesn't seem the type to be about sex. i told him bout my show sat he checked his schedual and found out he works and he was like well maybe i can switch with gabriale. he seems so sweet. i know i said no more dateing but i dunno i'm willing to quit smokeing cuz i don't think he would like that well it's late and well i have work tomorrow at 3 where i get to see ray and my homie monica. well nighty night |
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